Living In-between

By way of background to this post, in late 2013 I experienced a short and complicated pregnancy that was not to be. You can read about that experience here. That sweet naivete that I carried with me in my first two pregnancies disappeared then and I find it difficult not to think about the possibility of loss. This poem speaks to that tension that I now exist in – the hope of new life and the ever present possibility of death.

You are yet unknown, though treasured

unseen, yet loved. 

Our heartbeats tangle together, 

and at this stage we are 

one.

Wondering at the future and 

at complicated pasts

I go between two realities –

hope and devastation 

that this may not come to pass.

Whatever life may bring 

I’m thankful that we got to 

share these weeks.

This moment here right now

I am utterly at peace. 

I’m trying something new this month – #Write31Days with a talented community of other writers. We free write for five minutes (or more) each day guided by a prompt. Today’s prompt is ‘you’. 

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For more information on 31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes, check out Christina Hubbard’s site!

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10 comments

  1. This poem is beautiful. I have two friends who lost babies this year. Maybe your words will bring them comfort and hope.

    1. Thanks Natalie 🙂 At the time it was so devastating but I feel like the experience has taught us so much about how suffering can bring people together and how stories can heal and connect us back to what really matters… in a lot of time of course!

    1. Oh Amber, I went and read your story and it broke my heart as well 🙁 What a tragic and painful experience that you expressed so eloquently…

  2. I’m sorry for the loss of your little one <3 I had a recent experience that wasn't nearly so tragic, but that did lead me to realize that some things I take for granted aren't the givens I thought they were. Such fitting words: "Wondering at the future and at complicated pasts I go between two realities – hope and devastation"

    1. Thanks Emily 🙂 I so agree with the perspective that suffering of any kind lends to making you appreciate what you once took for granted… it really has made me feel more kindly towards experiences that I had thought would break me. We really are more resilient than we realise…

    1. Appreciate that so much, Christina 🙂 There is always something to worry about or vex myself over… trying more and more to live in the ‘let go’ zone… we’ll see how it goes!

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